Room or store room??

Room or store room??

Came back to own house almost a week,
but i still not happy... :-(

What are the reasons?

There are too many reasons...
One of the reasons that I could say is my room!!!

I am not happy, why other people's room can be so clean and neat and my room is like store room???
Since last time until now...
This time, when i look properly....
It's more like a store room...

Why must everything put inside my room??
Cooking oil, milk powder, Tupperware, toilet papers, and many other things that are not mine!!!!

I am trying to solve this problem by tidy up my room slowly one by one,
BUT what I heard that day make me more frustrate and more angry....

TRYING TO PUT MORE THINGS IN MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please...
U all are the one who put things in my room, NOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!
So, STOP SAYING THAT I AM THE ONE WHO MAKE ALL THIS MESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Every time I asked, u all will answer is temporary!!!
But how long is your temporary, ONE YEAR??? TWO YEAR??? or it has become PERMANENT???!!!

I have already decided...
I will put everything into boxes and tidy up one box by one box...
STOP putting all inside my room!!!

I want back my room, my bed... :-(

Feelings

I have been in my current place here for almost two week... 

But I still couldn't stand.... 

It's not because I am in KL for long time.... 

It's because some unhappy incidents happened...

What incidents??? 

I choose not to tell out...

But, there are too many until me, myself couldn't stand it...

Firstly, I posted a status in Facebook regarding mobile phone....

I am not happy because why must I switch off my phone??

Just because you don't want me to get so called "mental torture"???

For your information, I don't want to switch off my phones are because I got my own right to choose what I want to do... 

And I don't want to argue with you, that's why when you asked me to switch off my phones,

I just pretend that I switched off my phones, in fact, I just keep my phones in silent mode!!! 

When I turned off my silent mode, 

or whenever my friends that called me to ask me something, chat with me...

Why must a question like 

"Who called you???"

appear from your mouth after I finished my conservation with my friends?

Is it wrong that my friends called me??? 

Do I need to get your permission every time when the phone ring to answer the phone??

 Secondly, I don't have any problem with my stomach... and I also DON'T HAVE any disease like what you said.... You said I have eating disorder problem.... or because of stress, I ate every two hours.... 

I eat every 2 hours is because I get hungry easily... 

Every time, when I am hungry and I find food for myself... 

or I ate every 2 hours... Is there ANY PROBLEMS???

During night or midnight time, I find food to eat, 

why must you said NO or why must you control??

U said it is fat and ask me not to eat... 

Yes, I know I am fat and also overweight... 

BUT, SO WHAT???

I will eat whatever that I like... 

I don't want get my own health get into trouble!!!

Back to blogging

Hey, everyone...
It has been a year and one day since my last post until now.....
I now think that blogging is a good thing to express our self, our feelings....
Before this, I think that blogging is a waste of time...

Now, I have different thinking about blogging...
I will update my blog often and write out what ever that I feel.....

Take care~~~

To the people I care of,

thanks for being my friend...

Thanks for telling me the truth......

Now, I know what am I going to do.....

I will keep track on myself..... 

Don't worries, I will be fine....

I won't be disturb you all with my problems any more.....

Myself

After thinking for so long, I have decided to tell out what I feel so far....

Since 1st semester until now, I become more lazier and lazier...
I admit that I enjoyed myself more than study...
I realized that I wasted a lot of time only for enjoyment and forgot about my purpose study in University which is GET EDUCATION and FIND A GOOD JOB AFTER I GRADUATE.

Besides, I having problems that I personally thought is problem, BUT I dunno what others thinks...
Maybe that is only small matter but I take it serious, causing myself tension and stressful...

After went a "TAKE CHARGE" Personal Development Program, EVERY PROBLEM HAS A SOLUTION, I should not avoid my problem any more, I should face my problem.... Although is might be trouble for me, but I believe that I can do it no matter what...

I hope that I would be able to settle my problem, I will voice out whenever I need...
For now at the moment, I just need some times to cool down myself and find out my own personality... ...

YES,  I admit that I need FRIENDS that really care for me... ...
NO FRIENDS JUST LIKE EMPTY for me... ...

WAKE UP, SUSAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What Happen to me???

What happen to me?????
I really hope that I myself can change, but at last I repeated my mistakes again and again....
I make my friends disappointed on me...
As my friends said now is 2011, but I am still the 2010 me.....
I know I can't be live in 2010 anymore....
I have to be a person that live in 2011...

I have decided to change from time to time...
Although it might be very long, I am sure that I can change...

Besides, I am really disappointed with myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I should have take it along with me!!!!!!!!
IF I have took it along with me, then problems will not occur...
I am really very sorry that causing problems to my friends....

I felt sad when I am still the same...
And letting my friends to give up on me...
I really don't want to lost my friends...

My friends pin-point my mistakes, I am glad that my friends told me my mistakes
Because since primary school until secondary school, there is NO ONE that tell me my mistakes!!!

Sleepless night...

The time shows 2.34a.m....
But i haven't sleep...
What happened to me??
Feel headache some more...
Am I having insomnia????